The issue is me....

Hey guys, this is a really really long one. Apologies.

The Journey.....

I wanted to get it all into one post, my whole journey and my feelings now.

So yeah lets go back to 26th January 2015 when I joined Slimming World, I was getting bigger, sadder and more depressed about my size, I knew something had to change. I grew up without my mum she sadly passed away when I was two, the thought of my children having no mum growing up terrified me, it's something I've never had, a bond with a parent is something I lacked in my life and looking back had a lot to deal with my weight issues.

Anyway, moving on I was doing amazing at Slimming World, the weight was dropping off me which was amazing but looking back now it was unhealthy for me and my mind. I made crazy sacrifices and it got to a point where I was scared to eat things. Your opinion may change of me now, I've never talked about this before but you know what why sugar coat things?

I used to be scared of syns, I had them but hated myself after, I didn't enjoy holidays, going out with friends and I even took scales out when I went to eat for meals, some may call it focused and determined looking back now I just think I was bloody crazy!

I hit a loss of 9 stone 2lbs on my 52nd week of Slimming World, this is the point where things went rocky for me, the pressure finally hit me and I sat in group that day in front of everyone and I sobbed like a baby, I felt relief because I pushed so hard for it and I finally did it, I had a couple of rocky weeks then hit target of a 10 stone loss, this for me is when my problems started. I thought I was a strong person but this proved otherwise.

Target, another journey begins...

I was able to enjoy food without the fear of gaining weight I thought, however this has since triggered old habits, I am either a Slimming World angel or a PIG there is no in between. Because I didn't enjoy the plan whilst actively loosing weight I just pressured myself way too much its now causing me problems, old habits are kicking in and that scares me.

It's a massive deal for me to address this all with everyone and myself, I struggle a lot of the time when people say I am an inspiration when in fact I'm sat there looking at my phone with a grab bag of m&ms and a kebab, yes it's happened before!!! LOL

I was way too obsessed in weight loss mode and it's causing me problems now, so my advice for everyone would be to enjoy your life too, learn to love the plan, live with the plan and just remember it's only a number on the scales.

I am learning to live my life again now, I can wear the clothes I have always wanted to and do the things I love and I know food will happen and weight will change. I've decided not to focus on 'being at target' it's a number as long as I'm happy and enjoying my life that to me is more important.

I spent my whole 20s overweight and depressed, I need to stop being hard on myself and enjoy my life, my target weight is 9 stone 6lbs and as soon as it hits 10 stone that's when I need to pull it back which is exactly what I have seen this morning, I'll never be that person again and I am determined to try and beat these old habits.

Sometimes we all need to step back and take a look at the bigger picture, is our weight worth stressing over for the rest of our lives? My moto now is life is for living, I have been SO hard on myself this week but with the support of my online friends & followers I'm here now typing this saying you know what it's going to be ok. I like that we can reach out and help others going through the same struggles, it really means a lot.

So yeah, there you have it my crazy old feelings, a huge high 5 for reading this far haha.

Advice...

Stay true to yourself and be honest about things, if you're struggling speak up, pressure is also no good for anyone and also enjoy the ride, take the scenic route if you must but just give yourself a pat on the back every day because at least you're trying.

xxx

10 stone loss in pictures - YOUR QUESTIONS ANSWERED

 
Hi guys!! Just a little update from me, had lots of questions lately so doing a blog post to cover it all
 
xxx
 
 
PICTURES PICTURES PICTURES - TAKE LOTS - EVERY STEP OF THE WAY

I took pictures along the way, it really helped see my progress as sometimes we can't always see. I often get asked many questions about my weight loss so I am hoping I can cover some here....

How did you loose so quick?
I stuck to plan every week, I didn't go over syns or have a cheat night, have faith in the plan it really works.

How did you stay motivated?
I was doing it for me, I was my own motivation, I just pushed myself for the results I wanted

Do you have loose skin?
Yes I do, however it can be covered with clothes, toned in the gym and worked on. I would much rather have some loose skin than be 10 stone heavier, I get SO many messages saying people are worried about the loose skin... DON'T BE!!

Tips?
Lots of water, speed food, change your food and healthy extras as much as possible

Did you exercise?
Honestly, not really. I'm fairly active anyway but the exercise started once I hit target.

Would you be a Slimming World consultant?
I get asked this often, the answer is no, it's not for me. I love attending group and helping out but I like sitting down through image therapy, I couldn't stand there in front of people and try to motivate them, I haven't got it in me I don't think. I'm very happy as a member.

Did you eat all your syns?
It varied from day to day, nothing was off the menu, some days I had 5 and some 15 I just went with the flow.




Fitbit update....

I've been a busy bee, it's me and my Fitbit against the world every day, I love it! It keeps me on track and keeps me going seeing them numbers go up.

I've recently joined a new gym and I have been mostly using my Charge HR model, which can I just say is brilliant, it tracks steps and workouts along with your heart rate.

So where do I start? Lets start with measurements...

Since I have started using my Fitbit models, they have encouraged me to move more as well as exercise, so the results are in...

Waist - (-4 inches)
Thighs - (-1 inch per thigh)
Bust - (-2 inches)
Hips - (-2 inches)

I'm CHUFFED, my weight has remained the same, it just shows that moving more pays off! I feel smaller, in fact I feel great, so much more energy.

This is THEN and NOW

10 stone heavier and NOW which is 10 stone lighter plus my Fitbit results, my aim is to tone up and it's working!


Gym

I joined a new gym, I was a member of a previous gym but just didn't find the time to go, I woke up one day and had a word with myself, the home workouts were fab but they just were not giving me the results I wanted, I wanted to push myself that little bit harder.

So it has been me my Fitbit Charger HR, and my Fitbit accessories of course!!






I've been doing some cardio, arm and leg work.

I've taken this shot just from my leg work.... using Charge HR model



Out of the gym

I'm still moving more and tracking exercise, I thought the stats from mowing the lawn were quite interesting, it was a hot day and the grass was pretty long but it just goes to show...



The day I mowed the lawn it was leg day at the gym, I did lots of gardening and I really didn't stop moving, I had some great stats from that day....


Reflecting

It's been such a crazy few months, reaching my goal weight and working on me through fitness. I've never felt better, I have so much more energy, so much more motivation and I love working on myself for myself. Fitbit is such a fab device it motivates me so much every single day, it's pushed me to reach for them goals, move more and become fitter. I can't wait to see where I am in another few months.


A mid afternoon stroll with the children in the park and I was already over 20k...



I feel like a new person - Thank you Fitbit!!!!

Turning 31 and finally happy with ME

Hi guys, I've been a bit awol lately, I apologise to put it quite bluntly I've been enjoying life. I have so much more confidence now, so much more energy and I have been making the most of life with my beautiful family.

I turned 31 in May, and for once the number didn't bother me, I feel the best I have ever felt, what's a number?

I can see the difference in myself so much now looking back at pictures




I would never have a mirror selfie before that's for sure. It's amazing what you gain from loosing weight!!!

Happy me

xxx

London & Weight Gain

So I went to London with my husband I declared it 'off plan' I enjoyed the things I didn't have for 13 months, I went over the top not going to lie, I ate for the fun of it, think of everything bad for you, yep I ate it even when I wasn't hungry.

Will I ever do it again? No - This was a one off for sure, I went way over the top and it isn't big or clever it was a case of 'I'm off plan lets shove all the food I can in my mouth' that's not a healthy state of mind however I felt I needed it as crazy as that sounds, it's done and I drew the line as soon as I got home which I am proud off, I'm still in control.

Did I feel guilty? Nope

Did I put weight on? Yep, what did I expect after being a complete pig!

Remember the majority of a gain isn't fat, it's 'water weight'

Results:

Monday: 13.5lbs over target
Tuesday: 10 lbs over target
Wednesday: 7.5lbs over target
Thursday: 7lbs over target
Friday: 6lbs over target
Saturday: 5.5lbs over target
Sunday: 4lbs over target
Monday: 2lbs over target

What did I do?

  • Food optimised 100%
  • 5 syns a day
  • LOTS of water & green tea
  • Exercise
CLICK HERE TO READ MORE ABOUT THE STEPS I PUT INTO PLACE >>> click here
What now? Carry on with food optimising, don't stress and enjoy life, simple as that.


I looked at the bigger picture and I will never be 10 stone heavier I am 100% in control.


My adventure

First break away without the children, early birthday present for me and it was our wedding anniversary.

So where do I start? We got the coach from Birmingham, absolute bargain of £25 return, National Express really have changed, leather seats, lots of room and you can charge your phone WINNING!

We booked to stay at The Doubletree by Hilton, located next to The Tower of London, absolutely fantastic location, stunning hotel with a rooftop bar with amazing views.
We got there really early but they let us check in at 10am as they had a room and greeted us with warm cookies, who turns down a warm cookie? NOT ME!
The room was beautiful, really spacious and equipped with a fridge, lovely selection of tea/coffee and water. The best feature was the Apple iMac, first thing we did was Skype our kiddies, such a good feature.

Can I point out how AMAZING the breakfast is at this place? WOW. Buffet style and wow what a buffet, huge variety of cooked food, huge variety of cereal, porridge, fruit, toppings, juice then muffins, jam, croissants the works! I even had waffles and whipped cream! AMAZING.

I won't bore you with every detail but we went to loads of places, soaked up the London atmosphere and had the most amazing time.


The week after.....

I lost a further 5.5lbs and was sitting comfy in target - CHUFFED

There's a first time for everything...

So tomorrow I am going 'off plan' for the weekend, celebrating my wedding anniversary and my birthday. Going off plan is something I have never done, but I have told myself it's OK!!. When loosing weight I even stayed 100% on plan when I went on holiday but you know what it was worth it, it got me to where I am today.

I have a plan of action in place...

  • Enjoy myself and DON'T feel guilty
  • Walk where I can instead of the tube
  • Use the hotel gym
The breakfast is a buffet style one (uh oh) this means... sausages, bread, cakes etc but I will be eating without feeling guilty, we have also booked a table at the most amazing BBQ food place too!!

Now at target I can relax a little, I know I will gain weight but I know I can put the steps in place to get back into target, I don't want to spend my life stressing over scales, I'm going to enjoy some 'balance'

For now... BRING ON THE FOOD!!

I will do an updated blog with lots of pictures when I am home. I am also taking my Fitbit to track my steps and activity, gym wear is packed.

Toodles for now

xx

Happy & Confident

There is so much more to loosing weight, it's about the life you gain. It sounds cheesy but it's so true! Would I wear a playsuit before? Hell no and I certainly wouldn't wear bright lipstick!

I'm 31 next month and I spent all of my 20s overweight so it's time to enjoy wearing nice things, I just hope someone will tell me if I am 'too old' to wear something haha!

Maintaining at target

I thought I would do a little update on how I am finding it a few weeks in, the best thing is it's SO nice to relax a little, I really powered through my weight loss journey and I have no regrets about it at all, however I made a lot of sacrifices to get the result I wanted, so I am now enjoying the little things I didn't have.

I have learnt to 'balance' if I want some cake I will, in moderation and in my syns, straight back on it after, seems to be working ok. My weight hasn't been bang on the target weight every week, I think that would be hard it has been up and down but I have realised it's ok, weight will fluctuate but as long as I am in control and in target range that's all that matters. At the moment the way I feel life is amazing!! Slimming World has changed my world.

Some snaps from the weekend....



Same person, 2 family parties and 10 stone difference. See the body language? You can tell I am nervous, ashamed and unsure in the first one.

Fitbit & Fitness

 
READ MORE HERE:(including pictures and my progress) click here 
 
So I did it, I set out to loose weight and I did, I didn't quite expect to loose 10 stone in 13 months and be a healthy BMI but here I am, what's next? FITNESS

I'm really excited and I feel honoured to be teaming up with Fitbit to help me along with my fitness journey, you can find my story and follow my progress on their blog which is here: http://fitbiteurope.tumblr.com/ 

I have HIIT routines to follow, I have a gym membership to use so Monday April 11th is where the new chapter begins. I will still be maintaining my weight with Slimming World.
 
 
 
 

I will also be updating on here under 'fitness'

I'm sharing everything! Measurements, progress pictures and fitness routines. I'm a beginner, I've done running, HIIT and exercise dvds in the past but nothing that requires dedication, I'm ready to take that step now and really up my fitness.

I know it's not going to be easy but I can't wait to see the results.

What Fitbit product(s) will I be using?

  Charge HR - features are listed below

  • PurePulse™ Heart Rate
  • Exercise Tracking
  • Caller ID + Watch
  • Long Battery Life
  • SmartTrack™
  • Wireless Syncing
  • Workouts + All-Day Activity
  • Auto Sleep Tracking & Silent Alarms
One  - features are listed below

  • Clip (doesn't need to be worn on wrist)
  • All-Day Activity
  • Wear + Life
  • Clock + Display
  • Wireless Syncing
  • Sleep + Alarms

Find more info here: https://www.fitbit.com/uk/shop/chargehr


Have you got a Fitbit? I would love to hear your experiences! If you are thinking about purchasing one stay tuned to my posts.

A nice little surprise from Slimming World...

I had a lovely delivery last week, my own personalised book! My name on a book how cool is that? This book is out in groups now for £4.95


I have a huge sweet tooth so thought I would give a couple of recipes a try, I tweaked the soufflé one and added strawberries instead, it could do with a little more sweetener for me personally but was delicious.


The eton mess was AMAZING so good I have had it 3 times since!


I look forward to making some more yummies over the next few weeks.

A few days with the Lyons family...

So hubby has been off work it's been a really eventful and SYNFUL week but you know what it was worth it, it's the first time I have properly let my hair down and enjoyed myself food wise, I guess I can now and a few lbs gain every now and then is ok. I'm never going to be 10 stone heavier and a full week on plan will get rid of that. I've had a few tears of guilt I'll be honest but this whole treating myself is a completely new chapter for me and it will take some getting used to, I will get there I am sure.

I thought I would do a bit of a different blog post, some weight loss and Slimming World included of course but I wanted to share a little bit into my life, it's not very exciting but it's a bit different to my normal every day posts.

Stratford-Upon-Avon

Such a pretty place, we are so lucky we live not too far away, so we jumped on the train and took a little trip there, I wanted LOTS of pictures, I'm not afraid of them anymore and it's always nice to look back.

So this is me Kerry or Kerry-Anne as some people know me and my 2 children, Riley who is 7 and Taylor-Jayde who is 11 this week, that's the hubby Nick! I always get asked how old I am so here goes *gulp* I'm 30 (31 next month)


So many pretty shops in Stratford lots of sweet shops, cake shops and unique little gift shops. Along the river is so pretty with plenty to do and see, it's such a lovely family day out, I can't wait to go back in the summer, they also have a CHRISTMAS SHOP that is open all year round, AMAZING!!





 
  
 
 
We all had lunch by the river, I picked up these ON PLAN ready for CAAAAKE!!!
 
 

If you haven't been I would recommend it, lots of Shakespeare related things, lots of attractions too!
 
Did I mention CAKE yet? OH. MY they were AMAZING!
 
 







Shopping

Since loosing weight I have a new passion.... SHOPPING!!!
We took a little trip to out local shopping centre for lunch and to take a look in the shops, I am always drawn to River Island, I LOVE that place, when they have a sale on well.... it's never good for the bank balance. I picked up a few pretties.

Can't beat lunch at the Harvester, Skinny chicken with skin removed, 2 rolls and 3 bowls of salad haha! All ON PLAN so winning, right?







Date Night

Me and the hubby decided to go to out local Chinese buffet, I text my consultant to tell her as I did feel a bit of guilt, I then thought I have been super good for a whole year and I've lost more weight than I actually weigh so why not, it's not going to make me gain it all back is it?

Out came the new pretty top!




Even after loosing 10 stone I can still eat like a man, yep! 3 HUGE plates of food and 3 HUGE plates of dessert, it was all fun and games until I couldn't walk home, I actually thought I was going to burst.



GUILT

The day after the night before, I chose to eat off plan and I couldn't help but feel guilty. I'm finding it really hard at the moment I'll be honest, I am enjoying life as a target member and love the fact I can loosen the reigns a little but I need to learn that it's ok to not be 100% all of the time. I think I am programmed into 'weight loss mode' as soon as I step out of it I seem to loose control emotionally a little, I get lost and be really hard on myself. This is something I need to work on, I need to learn to be kind to myself and stop being so hard on myself too, so many beautiful words from people over on Instagram really helped me get through that guilt and I am SO thankful, for now it's work in progress and I promise I am working on it.


Reflecting

I need to work on my guilt emotions but other than that I had an amazing few days, it's not always just about the weight you loose it's also about the life you gain. I would never have pictures taken willingly, I would never go into a cake shop all smiley, I always would think everyone was looking at the 'fat girl' same at the Chinese buffet, small things make such a difference. I'm so glad I made the choice of joining Slimming World, my kiddies and hubby deserved more than me being overweight and unhappy.

Such a lovely few family days roll on the summer.

Unhappy vs Happy, you can tell by the body language.....